I HATE THIS!!!!

WHY CAN I NOT MOVE ON? WHY DO I THINK ABOUT THIS EVERY SINGLE DAY. I CANT LET GO OF IT. I LIVE FOR MY BABY AND I FEEL I NEGLECT MY OTHER TWO CHILDREN BECAUSE OF IT. I DREAM ABOUT IT, THINK ABOUT AND I WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT BUT I DONT WANT TO BOTHER ANYONE ABOUT IT. HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLP ME! I AM NOT AS STRONG AS EVERYONE THINKS. I WAS JUST LOOKING AT PICS OF HER BEFORE HER ACCIDENT AND I AM SO SAD. ALTHOUGH SHE IS AMAZING NOW I STILL MISS HER FROM BEFORE.